As I was praying the other day, thanking Jesus for being with me each day. I said "How did I make it without you?" I realized I hadn't made it without him. Even when I was ignoring him, he was still watching over me. Oh how humbling that thought was. I felt ashame that I had ignored him for so long. Tears begin to roll down my checks I felt like my heart would burst.

Just this one thing in itself said more than anything else to me that Jesus is pure love. Only pure love could sit and watch someone push them aside and not want to push back. If someone did that to us year after year we would walk away and wash our hands of them. Jesus could have done that with me and you but he didn't.

That feeling of heaviness in your heart, the tears that flow when you hear a gospel song or you pray is Jesus way of letting you know he is still with you. Don't ignore it and say maybe tomorrow I'll get right with Jesus. In the blinking of an eye there could be no tomorrow. One second from now your heart could stop beating, we have all had family who was fine and within the same day, they were gone. You know you have only a short time here, what's wrong with living right? Ok so you may loose a few friends, but you are gaining a friend that has already shown you that he will love you and be there no matter what. If your worldly friends are real friends, they will be happy with whatever decision you make. Your decision may make them a little uncomfortable, but it may also save their soul.

So what is wrong with living right? I look back now and realize that I have wasted so many years on this world who has only given me grief and sorrow. I now have a peace inside that I have never had before, things that use to make me totally stress out, money, hurt feelings, now I just shrug cause I know that these things will take care of themselves. Jesus will make sure I have what I need and how much more can I ask for. I can't take it with me when I die.

He has given me a contentment that I can't explain. He has also given me a burden for your soul. I don't want to see anyone face eternity without Jesus. I don't know you but I know you hurt, you cry, you fear, you are a human. I don't care what color your skin is, what you look like, what you have done in your past, those things don't matter. Your soul matters, your mental peace is worth more than precious gold or fine things. I wouldn't trade my peace of mind and contentment for all the rich's in this world. The more I have the more I have to deal with. I am finally at peace with life. Thankful for what I have and the need for more doesn't exist . As long as my bills are paid, the necessities of life are here. I have all material things I need or want. That is a blessing, the contentment.

If you need prayer, send an email and I will put you on my prayer list here and at church. Please don't think that problems don't come but I have finally realized I don't have the power to fix them. So instead of making myself crazy, I pray and put them in Jesus hands. Like a saying I have on my dresser. When satan knocks at my door, I simply say, Jesus could you please get that? When Jesus answers for you, what do you think satan is going to do? RUN!